Long Time No Post

It has been a while since I have blogged. There are many reasons why that is....some of the smaller reasons is I have 2 kids and no time. My youngest little person doesn't ever want me to do anything but look at him all hours of the day so he gets a little upset when I sit down at the computer.

The main reason is that I have been going through some emotional struggle the last couple of months. Without going into great detail and putting all of my emotions out there (which is really hard for me to do) I will just tell that my God continues to be so good.

So many times, as a human I forget to be still and know that he is God. He is always reminding me of this fact though. Sometimes in good ways and sometimes in not such good ways. I have had to pray earnestly for a renewed boost of strength to finish out the next several months and God being who God is has taken a little more time doing so than I would have liked. Again, it is always in his timing and NOT MINE!!!!

From the outside everything has been fine, but on the inside I have had a deep spiritual struggle going on. As all of you who are reading this know, our family is going through a very hard life struggle right now. God has asked a lot of me this time around and it has required me to put myself out there in ways that honestly scare me to death. I have had to give it all to him. If you know me, then you know that is hard for me.

We are halfway through this deployment and if God wills then my precious husband will be back in our home in just a few months for a while until the next time. I am able to share this with you now, because my Lord has revealed himself to me once again. He never fails me and I just want everyone to know that!! These days and nights are getting longer and harder, but we are going to make it to the finish line with God's leadership and help. I just want to make sure that when we do....I can look back and KNOW that I was pleasing to my Lord.

I want to say that I continue to covet your prayers for our family and all the other families that are in our same position during this time. I hope this post has not been "Woe is me" sounding, but just to let you know that we all have our own struggles of all different shapes and sizes, but our God is bigger and badder than any of them. He is sovereign and remains on his throne no matter what. I am just so thankful it is not all up to me!!

Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. Psalm 34:8